True Art

I am trying to write my Shakespeare paper, here in the library. I am having a lot of trouble starting. I need a F*ing thesis and the question is very open-ended making it hard to articulate an argument. I need to form something that is arguable, something someone would greatly disagree with. But the question is compare and contrast Macbeth and Shylock as Tragic Heroes. What the hell do i write? I have a few ideas but all have holes and are weak.

I decided to listen to some music to free up my mind and I put on "Mad World" but the cover by The Red Paintings. They are a really great Australian band. i saw them on tour with the Dresden Dolls. Their thing is they have painters work on a canvas during their set. As the songs progress the painting gets more detailed. It's really something to watch. They have a very odd light show and also have these people dressed as robots moving robotronically. It is very hard to decipher if it is an actual person or a robot (the costume design is very thorough). By the end of the set I realized they were part of the show, part of the art. The band plays their beautiful music (some of it lol), they have painters create a work of art within 35 minutes, and they have performace art as well. In my schovonoistic mindset I have grown into I thought about the artists getting with women after the show. I am sure the lead singer does well, but then i thought about the human art. I highly doubt they get approached after a show with star struck teens eager to spend some personal time. And I thought to myself, that is true performance art. That is true art. When it is not for the end result, not the product or benefits but the actually doing. The creative process.

These papers do not matter. In years from now it will not matter if i get an A on this paper or a B+, but how I do this will affect me. My habits and routine, my depth of passion, my perseverance. I am still scared and anxious and I have no idea where I am going with this paper but I have to shake that. I have to bust this paper out and get it done. i really do love writing papers but sometimes they get to me. They really take a chunk of my soul with them. I give 100% of myself and always feel i put my heart on the line. If you reject a paper of mine, you reject me.